Reclaiming my space...

These last few days I have really been missing my online Scrapbook community that I was apart of. I took some time away from it due some drama that was going on that really had nothing to do with me. I needed to remove myself from the situation and refocus on why I enjoyed belonging to the community. I even tried to go to another community to fill the void.

But...here's the thing. I am struggling to get back in there and reconnect with people. Why? I wish I knew. I get on...look around...and get right back off. I don't know....maybe I feel alittle jilted by it all....maybe I am resenting the fact that I was "the bad guy" for trying to put an end to the drama.....who the hell knows what it is....It's probably ME....overthinking everything. All I know is, I am practically forcing myself back, and it's no fun.

I miss the inspiration, and I miss sharing the joy and excitement of other scrappers. This was my place that I went to last fall when my life seemed to be falling apart, and it offered me so much "life" . It's the place that brought me to my BFF..M (who funny enough, was so close to my life, and I didn't even know it). I met some many wonderful girls, that touched my life in so many ways. I found a wealth of support and knowledge from people, and it renewed a drive in me to reach for my goals alittle harder!

Anyway....I guess my point is, I feel like maybe I have let others influence my life...AGAIN!! This seems to be my problem...I let people get in the way of me making my own choices...UGH! I thought I was SO over this! Guess not. So, today I am going to get back in the game...whether I like it or not. I'm getting in there, becoming active, and reclaiming my space in the community! Those that are my friends will understand....those that aren't....well, we'll just leave that alone! (side note - this is not meant to sound so dramatic. When I reread it...it does sound alittle on that side....but really it is just a bit of a ramble!) OK....deep breathe....MOVING ON!