can't get my groove back...

What is it lately with me and my ability to get online....I just can't seem to get on and do what I need to be doing. I even said a dew weeks back that I was going to change this and get back into the swing of things...nope!!! didn't happen. How can one thing upset the balance of my day so much...I just dread it. Anyway...this was just in my head today...I was trying to touch base with some people and found myself sitting here at the computer....not wanting to log in to a few places....bleck!! Little steps I guess!!! Hopefully I will get back to some of my favorite places!!

How many times...

OK...twice in one day...what can I say. This is blog worthy.
The conversation went alittle
like this...

Me - Lily what would you like to
have for lunch today?

Lily - Mac n cheese and a hot dog.

Me - Do you want one hot dog...or
two?

Lily - TWO!! Not cut up mom...
leave them big.

Me - OK...two it is.

**pause for cooking time** While
paused...I realize that I really don't
want to give her the hot dog whole.
She eats a bit like a caged animal and the whole choking thing is a
very big possibilty!!

Me - Lily come eat your lunch.

Lily - OK, mom....Were's my hot dogs?

Me - They are coming in just a minute...be patient!

Lily - UGH!!

Me - Here ya go...you might want to eat your hot dog first...your mac n cheese is still
pretty hot. (as I turn back to the sink...this is what I hear)

Lily - (very loud UGGHHH!) MOM!! HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU
NOT TO CUT MY HOT DOGS...I WANT THEM BIG! (I turn around and look at her, and
before I can say anything...i get this) MOM!!! REALLY....HOW MANY TIMES!!!!

Seriously!! If she is like this at 3...what in the world am I going to do in another 10 years??

Needless to say....she ate the cut up hot dog...but complained the whole time!

**the pic is from her first day of school. I felt like I should have pinned some type of warning
for the teacher to her shirt...I hope they know what they have gotten themselves into with
this little monkey!

Fouled out...

So Lately....

I SUCK!!


I have been foul for about a week now....yesterday I decided it was time to get over it....and get on with it. It wasn't an outwardly foul mood...which is a triumph in its self! It was more of an internal foulness...I have been lecturing myself (in my head) and I've been down on myself (again, in my head)....just a personal funk! Not losing the weight I should be these past weeks...Not getting the QUITE time I really needed now that all the kiddos are in school...missing my hubby on a daily basis lately (he started teaching a class on top of his day job AND his freelance business). Just a little post summer drama moment for me I guess. BUT the hubby and I took some time last weekend just for us...It was SOOO nice. We just wandered all day...took some pic's...did alittle shopping...had a nice dinner OUT. We really needed that...or atleast I did anyway. I am happy that the kids are back in school...but for some reason I haven't really noticed a difference in the house yet...I keep waiting for that moment...the one where you suddenly realize that the only noise in the house is the noise that you are making....yeah...that noise!! So far...hasn't happened yet. This has had me down a bit....go figure! Maybe today will be the day...we'll see. As far as the whole weight thing....I am still doing REALLY good (down 30lbs) BUT...or maybe that should be BUTT...These last few weeks...I have not been doing what I should be...I would love to be able to say...I am doing everything right....I am making the right choices....I am moving everyday....blah, blah, blah.....you know the drill. But the fact is I have not been doing ANY of it...at least not well! So yesterday...I was up 1 lb (AGAIN) and I made up my mind to suck it up and GET OVER myself!!!!

So hear I am this morning...trying to get back (nope, not trying...DOING) to my routine...First stop was once again trying to get back to my blog....not sure what's up with me (or maybe I do) but I am having a hell of a time lately meeting all my online commitments....Gotta fix that! I have a ton of new layouts to submit or post...and I finally have some more pictures to work with. I am feeling like today I might just scrap the day away!! and tomorrow too!

sorry for the longest paragraph ever....I have a tendancy to just type what's in my head and not pay attention to proper!

So long for today...